okay this shall be quite a sad entry cos it's late at night and i'm about to start stoning.
where does friendship start and end?it's weird to see that steadfast loyalty in people in nj,the kind of loyalty i had in crescent towards friends that didn't really matter,because they changed like the direction of the wind.it's weird to witness it as a bystander,and realise that i feel untouched by it all.funny to see that things don't affect me as much as they did anymore.i take a step back and i reliase how silly i was all along,getting angry,hurt over things that didn't make such a big difference anyway.i saw them as the most important issues in the world,while they were the size of an ant.now,it seems like the friendships forged don't affect me as much as those in crescent did.it's got nothing to do with the people;the people are lovely,if not lovelier.yet.it seems i'm numbing myself to the suroundings,detaching myself.maybe cos i don't wanna fall again.
like enqin said.pre-emptive war.this is internal.sigh.
i don't really wanna touch anything that surrounds you.you kept me in the dark,stuck to me like gummy worms stick to a finger and i don't like that.go back to your own world.you don't belong in mine,neither do i fit into yours.
okay this hasn't been sad but rather rambl-y.
playing;vanessa carlton:even angels fall.
